Has it ever hit you how sinful you are? Like a bit of a slap in the face, or a bucket of cold water dumped over you? I got hit by that a few weeks ago. Realizing the wrong I had done, realizing how much I messed up everyday. It was like the sin had been highlighted. I felt overwhelmed and sick at the thought of what (and who!) I had let myself become. God called me to come to Him. But I was so unclean, how can I go to a holy God? I had to be better before I could go back to God. I had to work all of this out. I couldnt go to Him with all this bad in me.
But the more I tried, the more I mucked up. The more I fell away. And I got to a point when I thought I would never be worthy of His love, and I would never be worthy of Him. I knew all I had to do was go to God and ask for forgiveness. But I knew I didnt deserve it. I knew God would forgive me, but I couldnt forgive myself. I thought I would be better at this whole 'perfect' thing. I thought that I could do it. I thought I was a good person. But I'm not.
I asked God to forgive me. And He did. He overwhelmed me with His forgiveness. But the next day, I still sinned. And I knew I had to ask again, and again. I guess I was humbled in the fact that I realized I would always have to ask, because I was always going to sin.
We all make mistakes. God has forgiven. But have you forgiven yourself? Give yourself a break, were human. Go after God, but dont beat yourself up over your sin. God has forgiven it, so consider it forgiven!
Humbling thought. If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend?
~ Meggie
Very convicting Meggie but I love it! So very true and I think so many of us forget to forgive ourselves or we hold onto what we've done wrong even after it's erased from God's sight. Love the pictures and quotes too :) xx
ReplyDeleteWow....Those quotes were amazing. Especially the first and the last one.
ReplyDeleteYour post made a very good point. There's a thin line between knowing you mess up and then beating yourself up about it. The latter can heard not to do sometimes. I know that's something I do a lot but I'm slowly working on that.
I have so often fallen into despair and gross unbelief when I think about how much I sin...Thankfully God is so loving He brings me out of it by showing me His vast ocean of mercy and love.
ReplyDeleteYour post was so good and very timely, thank you SO much for sharing! I love your honesty in writing these posts, keep it up!
If you have time look up the song "He Brought Me Out" By Henry J. Zelley...It's so encouraging!