What really matters to you? Its kinda a hard question to answer. How would I know what is the biggest thing that truly matters to me? I would like to think Christ, but in reality what does really matter to me?
Think of it this way. What do you do with most of your time? What do you think about when your bored, or just before you are going to sleep? What do you talk about the most? Most of the time, Ive found, these questions show me what I am actually focusing on. And I am always embarassed at what has been stealing me from Jesus. Such petty little things! Surely I would know better?
Well, this Friday is Good Friday, easter is on our doorstep. The time to remember, to focus on what truly matters. Christ, and what He has done for us. When reading in John about Jesus dying on the cross, something fresh literally splashed over me.
In the garden, Jesus wept tears of blood. I mean, I have some depressed moments, but I have never felt so scared and so hurting that I have wept tears of actual blood. It made me realized how much agony Christ went through, both physical and mental pain, and how alone He was. Everyone had deserted Him. But what did He do?
He sat in the garden and prayed His heart out, weeping that this all would not happen, but in the same breath of asking for God to take it away, He also said 'but let Your will be done'.
And then, He went, knowing the pain He would face, and He walked straight into it.
And in His darkest moment, hanging there on the cross, He didnt focus on just trying to breath. He didnt think about how much pain He was in. He didnt even feel sorry for Himself.
In His darkest moment, Jesus thought of His mum.
When Jesus saw his mother there, and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby, he said to her, “Woman, here is your son,” and to the disciple, “Here is your mother.” From that time on, this disciple took her into his home. - John 19:26-27
Christ really had no thoughts for Himself, or His pain. He loved, and He thought of others, way before He thought for Himself, even though we would all admit that He had the right to close His eyes, shut out the crowd tormenting Him and wait for death. But He didnt. He focused on what truly mattered, others.
Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ here is no commandment greater than these.” - Mark 12:30-31
Girls, this weekend is about focusing on God and praising Him for the sacrifices He made that day. Put your priorities straight and put all your attention on Christ, love Him with everything you've got.